What to do...

I got an email today from Cornell saying that they have processed my application and they sent me a link to their engineering blogs. I was reading the blog of a girl who has a major similar to my intended one (biomedical engineering) and she said something that makes me kind of nervous. She wrote: "Cornell will probably send you some kind of nudge telling you they like you, and then you will get an official acceptance letter." I don't really like that they do this. And even worse, now that I know about it, I'll worry about it even more! I feel like it just makes the situation a lot more stressful than it needs to be.
I want to see an anxiety counselor. I was having a lot of random anxiety attacks last month and I think that they're building up again because of this upcoming trip to Israel/my fear of flying. My parents are very resistant to this idea. I think they just don't want to have to face the fact that there may be something wrong with me, but I'm really scared of what may happen if I don't get at least some expert opinion. When I fly, every muscle in my body constricts and I just replay all the things that can go wrong in my head. I feel as though there's pressure all over my body, and I'm afraid that I may actually do some damage if my body stays like that for 14 hours. I want to just get over this stupid fear!
I got an 85 on my evolution test in Bio...I'm not too disappointed considering it was a very fair test and I didn't study until the day before. So I deserved it. So glad evolution's over. I just have to get through this unit on plants and then we reach the systems of the body, my favorite!
Organic was really fun today, we're doing IR and NMR spectroscopy which are essentially graphs that act as puzzle pieces so that you can figure out what the compound looks like. I'm really good at them and they're super fun :D
I reeeally want to stay home from Friday so I can extend my break...we'll see if that happens or not.

SciOly 2009 and The Beginning of the 2nd Semeste

Hmm so I haven't written here in a while. I kind of feel like there isn't any point in writing if no one is going to read it. And I don't really know if I want to go around telling people to read. Oh well...Interesting things that have happened lately:
-Science Olympiad was yesterday. We didn't win anything but it was still lots of fun. A lot of seniors went this year! I hope people are still involved once we leave.
-So far I've gotten into two schools, NYU Poly (with 22k) and Fordham (with 10k). I was deferred from MIT and I'm waiting for my final decision in March. I'm not really in any rush.
-We are leaving for Israel in a little over a month! I'm competing in a physics tournament in Rehevot at the Weizmann Institute. I'm really excited but also really nervous for the plane ride. It's my first international flight and I'm scared of flying. I've been having lots of dreams about airplanes lately...I guess my mind is trying to prepare itself for my flight!
-I have a bio test on evolution tomorrow and I'm doing this instead of studying. That's what 2nd semester is for!
-I'm really happy that its second semester. High School is finally coming to an end! This is supposed to be the funnest semester of all high school...lets see if that ends up being true.
-I'm very happy :)
-I had a Cornell interview last weekend and it went REALLY well. I learned a lot about Cornell and I'm really seriously considering going there. I like it as much as MIT! Now all I have to do is worry about getting in. I find out in April.
-Google Earth is addicting.
-We may be visiting the Hanging Gardens of Babylon while in Israel. I'm really excited for this!
-Only 5 more days of school until mid-winter recess :]

That's all I can think of for now...[hopefully] more later!